Among Them, Apart

7/29/2025

I move through the room
like a ghost draped in skin,
smiling in all the right places,
laughing on cue—
a hollow sound that bounces off walls
and disappears.

I know their names,
their stories,
the way their voices rise when they care.
But somehow,
I remain untouched,
like glass set at the edge of the table—
there,
but not really part of the feast.

They talk in circles I can’t step into,
warm like campfires
I’m too cold to reach.
I nod,
I listen,
but their words pass through me
like wind through thin curtains.

I am with them,
but not with them—
a moon circling a planet
that never looks up.

Sometimes,
I wonder if I faded when I wasn’t looking.
If somewhere along the way,
I left myself behind
in a place no one visits anymore.

They say my name
and I answer,
but it sounds borrowed,
like a coat I’m wearing
because I forgot how to be bare.

This crowd,
familiar as a childhood street,
feels foreign now.
Like walking through a dream
where faces smile,
but eyes don’t see you.

And maybe they never did.
Or maybe I’ve become
too quiet,
too far,
a postcard never sent,
a story no one noticed missing.